screw.

blogger. everyone has tumblr. i'm gonna use it. read my blogs there (=

one less lonely girl.

click it please(:

eraser.

i don't know what to blog about anymore... it's getting kinda boring. but i have nothing to do and i didn't bring home my yellow raft in blue water -.- so, my life is actually boring, i do nothing nowadays. nothing at all. i go home, watch spongebob and then do homework. boring. i wish i had late schedule now. just so i could wake up late and have school end later so i won't be bored. aha. i sound kinda like a nerd >.< & nancy, i gotta give you your jacket but you never remind me so idk how i'm gonna remember. i'm still wondering if i should do the president's thing or not. and if i should go to archery thingy on monday. actually, i don't know if i should do archery anymore. haha. i gotta think about it. i mean, it's fun but sometimes, it gets frustrating. so, i really want cupcakes right now. would anyone like to bring some tomorrow? yes, please(: i lost my eraser. my lucky eraser. where'd it goooooo?! D: and p.s my math table is correct, i don't have a life. -.-

B+'s

i hate B+'s. why don't they just give you a B?! there's not point of the +. -.- or why don't they just give you the A-?! so i'm getting two B+'s. Japanese and English. Haha. both languages. and i'm getting a B in math. =) so i think i'm getting a 3.5. which is okay. LOL. in english we got to know our grades. and Clinton keeps on calling me by the wrong names. i dont think diane is that hard to remember. annie and alicia(: watch her call me that tomorrow too. :P japanese was okay. we went around and looked and described the pictures we drew. i forgot a lot. my yellow paper was like filled. modern world we worked on our projects. i have mexico nooow! haha. thanks Katheryn(: gym was okay, played volleyball, but i suck so it's not really playing haha, it was just hitting the ball to the other side of the gym. lunch was fuun. LOL. amy and i walked into wash house and came back out and left noelle and alicia. and we were waiting to see if they'll catch up but they was just standing there. so we called them. haha. wonder what would have happened if we didnt call them. math was good i guess. i kinda understand it. rofl. i kinda pmsed my table. hehe. sorry guys. bio was okay. 27 outta 30 on my test. that ruined my A+. haha. oh wells, i'm still getting a A. (: so it's all gooood. reading chick flicks can help with the stress :D

whatcha say.

[Chorus]
Wha- wha- what did she say
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is

[Verse 1]
I was so wrong for so long
Only tryin' to please myself (myself)
Girl, I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else
So, no I know I should of treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever

[Hook]
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

[Verse 2]
How, could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go (love go)
And ooh, when I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know
I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you we're meant to be together

[Hook]
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

[Verse 3]
Girl, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right, girl
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right

[Hook]
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So baby watcha say!

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

first love.

our last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

tomorrow, at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

the paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things that I don't want to forget about

tomorrow, at this time
I will probably be crying
I will probably be thinking about you

you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

stfu.

yeah, shut the fuck up. i know, i never say the f word ya ya ya. yeah, this is one time where i do need to say it. what the freak do you think you're doing? trying to get me to get jealous? yeah, bitch, i don't think it's working. i don't need you to hang around me because you feel sorry for me, cuhs there's nothing to be sorry about for me. you think you know everything about me? is that why you're actually like this? i bet you're just gonna use it as an excuse. i've had enough of this bullshit. don't think i don't know what you're doing. flirting with him? i don't give a fuck. it's not even that. it's all the other things you've done. all the times you tried to take my things. yeah, my things. notice my? that means it's mine. i may sound like a bitch, but it's the truth. blogging is when you're relieve yourself and that's what i'm doing. if you don't like what i write, don't read. i've put up with this for too long now. it's time to stop it. maybe it's just cuhs i don't know how to tell you. maybe it's cuhs im scared of what will happen. maybe i just don't know what to do. maybe i'll just move on. it's the grown up thing to do. and that's what i'm going to do. people say people change for the better, but you know what, you've changed for the worst. actually, maybe you've been worst, but i just didn't see it until now.

carwash.

carwash was today, i was kinda late. hehe. but that's okay cuhs tiff, zi and winnie were late too! LOL. so first tiff and i went around the neighborhood to pass out flyers. that was pretty fun. we passed all of them out. but i had to pee really bad soo we went into presidio so i could pee. and my gosh, i freaking miss that school. all those memories. i never visited. i'm gonna start. hopefully some teachs remember me! i miss my locker. haha. it was behind a door -.- i always got hit with the door nob. fun days. then we went back to the carwash. it was cool. washed and dried and rinsed the cars. then we left. (: suuuper good talk gals! (:

beach.

today wasn't that good of a day, but thanks amy, donna, shogo, jacky, edwin, chris and joey for making it better. i needed it. goooo eagle eye snipers. i was having a pretty bad day today. thank god for you guys. and after archery, we went to the beach! thanks a lot amy and shogo -.- for getting me wet. and i hope one day, someone pants you shogo. OOH, played this game but i totally forgot the name. well, it was pretty crazy. haha. the "i've never" game. played it with amy, shogo, edwin and dylan. i woooon! (: then we watched the sunset, which was amazing. i've never seen the sunset before. it's gorgeous. if you never seen the sunset, you should. haha. and then we went home. took the bus with them and the bus took forever! then i called uncle to pick me up. :D took a shower, it was sooo relaxing. and again, thanks guys, i needed it.

thursdays.

today was okay. in english, we went over stuff. haha. took me awhile to remember. in japanese, we went over the sempi paper. haha. booring. i think i'm failing that class. would someone like to help me? modern world, we worked on our projects. the sub said that we were the best class(: beat that tiff and gwen and shogo ! haha. just kidding. worked on our storybooks. due date was freaking changed! monday now. gym was tiring. i hate running! period. 2 laps and my time was 4:50. sooo tired. then i had to walk up to the 3rd floor for adv algebra. it was okay. i kinda wanna change seats. aha. get to know people(: and no offense again, groupmates, you guys are fun and all, and literally, it's all guys. haha. i found that fuuuunny! so, lunch with amy noelle gwen vivian. haha. then bio and she scanned our books. haha. afterschool, guys, i do have a life. i don't go straight home -.- went to get some frozen yogurt with amy. and then went to pass out flyers. why the freak was it so hot?! then met up with gwen, cody, shogo, donna, jasmine, and joey. wanted to go to the park but then cody wanted pho so we followed him :D haha. and then he treated us to pho too. THANK YOU CODY(: and then we went to cody's grandma's house. haha. that was pretty fun. then i took the bus home. :D byebye.

hmm.

everything is just so confusing. i don't know what to do. what are you trying to do to me? teear me down? because it's working. don't think i don't notice cuhs i do. whatevs. i'm not gonna let that bring me down. i pretend i don't know cuhs the truth hurts but you shove it in my face one time after another.

so, today. i took the midterm thingy for adv algebra, i think i did okay. i hope it doesn't lower my grade. i went from a F to a B-. pretty impressive huh? school was okay. haha. yoooo amy, we found a little hiding space or whatever and we're hanging there from now on. (: "but it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone" i love that song. doesn't mean anything by alicia keys. ooh, haha. happy birthday anita and sarah(: love you guys.

P.S please don't play with my heart anymore.

i'm throught with it.
p.s i also had an actual heartache today.
the worst way to miss someone is when they're right beside you and yet you know you can't have them.
&yeeee, i'm getting a B- in adv algebra. it's pretty good.
& i'm sorry if my eyes don't sparkle anymore.
music gives my heart therapy.
& i'm lying to myself, saying it's for the best.

math test.

i don't know what to write for titles. haha. WELL, NO HOMEWOOORK! haha. i've been making bracelets. dang, it's addicting! well, today's kinda goood. EXCEPT I FREAKING FAILED MATH. -.- shooooooooooot. hmm, maybe we got a good grade(: haha.i highly doubt that. no offense groupmates :P well let's not think about it. sooooooo, i'm soo bored right now. i dont know what to write about. well, i looove watcha say! it's soooooooooo good. watch me become obsessed with it! ahha. byebye justin bieber and jonas brothers. i'm in sophOmore year. glad i know how to spell sophomore now! it's not the year for obsessing over celebs. bring on the REAL boys. haha. (:

freak, tomorrow's monday.

soo, today, i went to hobby co's with annie. haha. to get some string for the bracelets(: and then we went to 7eleven. and i decided to get a banana icee. which annie was like, "why do you always get the weird flavors?!" haha. idddk. we came back to my house, and made some bracelets. trust me, they're hard to make! haha.

more emtional blogs please(:

asdfghjkl; i don't know what to do anymore. "/ it just hurts. i'm tired of acting like i'm okay and keeping that smile on my face. what happened to me? i don't think i'm the same anymore. i miss the carefree middle school days, where everyday, i actually had a TRUE smile on my face. now, i'm just faking that smile to everything. people think i'm okay but inside, i'm not. and if i don't show that smile, i know that people are going to wonder why. sometimes, i wonder what my life would be like if i never met you. probably more relaxing. i hate how life goes now. seriously, fml. i just hate it. sometimes i wish that i could just float away from all this. wish to be happy for real once. dang, this sounds like the other blogs i have.

11:11

i wish it was always 11:11 just so i could make a lotta wishes (: today was one of the best days! english was okaay. we didn't do much. just listen to people present. haha. japanese was heella fun. i actually enjoyed it. and it went by hecka fast. modern world, 3 words=chopped off heads(: that was pretty funny. gym, we did pacers. nothing special. adv algebra, DUUUDE, i finally get something! i feel pretty proud of myself :D adv algebra is pretty fuun too. keeps me awake(: then i had luunch with noooelle. then bio, i didnt fall asleep! LOL. probably cuhs it was short day. aka, b schedule! and then went to art bistro with amy and cody. white chocolate mocha <3>

saturdays

i dont have anything to do on saturdays. LOL. but i did go to payless. LOL. yes, payless to get some shoes. they're white. haha. :D and i went to walgreens to get some nail polish. red and pink. RED O_o can't imagine me painting my nails that color. well, i still have bunches and bunches of homework. asdfghjkl. idk how i'm gonna finish all of them. better start. haha. but i don't wanna. :P the chinatown fair, i wanted to go. buut its kinda cold and my mom promised to bring me to macys' to look at some boots (: i've been wanted them for a suuper loong time! haha. yeeeee. i dont wanna write anymore. buut i'll be back ;D

:D

www.givesmehope.com

it's amazing how this website can give me hope.

(:

i'm glad we became closer. it's funn telling you what's on my mind and not having you judge me(: thaanks for that. it means a lot to me. i used to blog about my feelings but now, i've talked to you, it's better telling a person than a website. all the things that i've kept inside, it's all out. haha. i tell you everything that's on my mind. you help me get through the day. you've been a great friend. thanks for listening(: and i hope that i wasn't a bother :D school was okay. haha. bad joke friday tomorrow! gotta think of some(:

haha.

sooo my mom was telling me about buying me new clothes during the break of christmas. haha. so not gonna happen. she told me that last yeear but never did. rofl. notice how i blog a lot? it's cuhs i'm bored at times and sometimes, i just don't wanna do homework. soo i'm getting a B now in modern world -.- and it's cuhs of my test. darn it. wish i studied now. test in adv algebra. i had no idea how to make a histogram of a box plot. totall failed that. uugh. and i got buncha homework for that class too. hopefully, i make it up. (: actually, i need to make it up. rofl. all my personals and feelings are on tumblr. aha. so it's private :D comeon guys, what's your blogger?

ugh.

im hecka pissed. i can't log onto facebook! damn it. and facebook is like my lifeline! uuugh. haha. i depend on online stuff. actually, it's not that i can't log on. it's that i can't even get on to the facebook page -.- ohwells, haha. funny thing is, my internet still lets me blog. and aim. that's good. so today started out bad. my mom and my brother got into a fight. OUTSIDE our house. hella embarrassing. dang, just kill me already. and then we got to school, and during the car ride, my mom AND dad got into a fight. fuck. and i got off. typical school day. OOOOH. so in adv algebra, we had a quiz, i got 20/20. YEEEEES. and that's a suuuper good thing because i'm kinda failing that class. ooh shoot, test tomorrow. i hoope i ace it and maybe i will cuhs i got 19/20 on the other quiz we took and i've been doing my homework and such. haha. :D that class is fuun. or more like funny. lol. yuups. that's it. byebye(:

wow.

haha. today was good. wasn't fuun but good. in english we worked on project. haha. jan has hella good handwriting! oh, which reminds me, i gotta look up the quote for our poster. i'll do that soon. japanese was okay, i was kinda confused but i think i got it. I THINK. LOL. then homeroom, pretty much the same, talked with noelle, anna and tyana. then modern world, wow, that was boring, he always give PPPs. uugh. buut it was kinda interesting. oh, test soon. then gym, we had g4. kinda fun. haha. went to the weight rooom. katie took shawn's backpack. lunch, i hung out with noelle, haha. samesame as usual. then adv algebra. haha. it's heecka funny in that class. :P oooh darn it, quiz tomorrow. hope i don't fail. i'm getting a D -.- and then bio, we had activity, kinda boring buut fun. haha. yuuuup. that's my day.

blah

LOL. since my tumblr is private, i'ma use blogger so other people can read about my day(: annie, this is just for yoou. today, it's boring. i'm not doing anything. byebye(:

well nevermind the byebye part. i'ma write more. sooo, i wanted these boots from baker buut they were soooo expensive. dang. ugh, so i went and looked at the payless website and aha, their boots are cheeaper. and since there's a payless near my house, i think i might go later, buut i don't have money so nevermind. hate being broke. last year, i wasn't. and during the summer, where the heck did all my money go?! haha. maybe it's cuhs of the movies, shopping, eating and going places. wooow. darn it. whatevers. byebye noow.